I'll take a fall, take a shot for you

Sun, 24 Feb 2008 03:03:15 GMT

hi everyone. its been long since i posted here since flyingaliens came about
it's been hell
i miss my pretty babe. ever since 08 started, we kinda stopped hanging out as much as we did. i probably only saw her once or twice since jan 08. she has school, so do i. and i have COOL NEW FRIENDS AND I DONT CALL HER ANYMORE BECAUSE I DONT THINK I MISS HER BUT WHEN SHE SAYS SHE MISS ME I JUST GEY-KIANG SAY I MISS HER ALSO AND I SMSHER BUT SHE NEVER REPLY/RECEIVE

HUANG ZI YI NI GEN WO KUAI DIAN QU STARBUCKS~~~!!! WO HEN JIU DEN NI

whoa, i have never written so much han yu pin yings in my life before
kekeekaks

this is zhiyi
i walk around the house with my armpit hair danging and sweeping the floor its very effective because the dust dirt and crumbs of food get stuck inside the tangles of my armpit hair so the floor is squeaky clean
and my bra size is 32E

and i dont wash my hair. only once a month

Sun, 03 Feb 2008 10:26:30 GMT

MOVED!!!! click moved!

Me love.

Tue, 29 Jan 2008 14:41:03 GMT

I'll take you home real quick
sit you down on the couch
pour some Dom Perignon and hit the lights out.

Happy Birthday Baby K :)
I want you to know that i realy appreciate you and that you're so damn special!
Love you.

School sucks! I need to get a A for excel if not i'l have to repeat module :( so much for that nice red F. Well but at least my motivation for school makes it more interesting :)

Thank God for * :)

You make me wanna love
You make me wanna fall,
You make me wanna surrender my soul.

All that i need.

Tue, 22 Jan 2008 16:05:42 GMT

we dont need to go to far
let's hold on to who we are
if it's real we'll make it through
'cause all i need is you

we dont need the world right now
we've got time to work it out
hold on tight ill hold on too
'cause all i need is you

I miss America!

Snowboarding :)

My dad said he'll plan another trip to America again this year :) yay and kim is gonna come along again i hope :) we should be going to new york :)

Yesterday best came to pick me up from school with lam, jasper and jonnie:) he's so damn sweet. thank you & i love you.

Met kim, nat and cw. Jackey and mon came :) saw moboooo, jo tan and cara.

Today i fucking woke up smiling to myself! :D :DD okay met mobo after that for luch at coke lounge. studied a little then went to the train station to meet aly. and i saw eliii :)

Chua just had to suan me again!

And how I'm stuck here with the ghost of what we used to be.

Man Eater.

Sun, 20 Jan 2008 09:59:50 GMT

Something in the way you move I can’t deny
Every word from your lips is a lullaby
A twist of fate makes life worthwhile.

MOBOOOOOO :)

Zouk yesterday :)

Chalet on friday :) Szetoh's and Jourdan's comdined birthday chalet! watched Disturbia at level 9 first before heading to NSRCC! well the chalet started off boring but after that it turned out to be quite fun! :) Joel, lam, stacy, brandon, mon, hilary, zhen, jackey, sasha, shana, jia, jasper, wee, wei hoe, li gang, pelyn, jourdan, szetoh and baby k were all there! :)

Girlfriend, it doesn't matter if you're a million miles away from here but one thing that would never ever change is the fact that my love for you will never change. Please don't cry yourself to sleep anymore. I know it hurts but please be strong. ILOVEYOU Girlfriend.

It's gettin hard to
Be around you
There's so much i can't say
And do you want me to hide the feelings
And look away
And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop.

Whatever it takes.

Thu, 17 Jan 2008 04:52:20 GMT

I cannot hold back
The truth no more
I let you wait too long
Although it's hard and scares me so
A life without you scares me more

For you I would fly
At least I would try
For you I'll take the last flight out

Microsoft excel is really too interesting that i'm falling asleep. I dunnno how i'm gonna make it through this 3hour lesson!

Yesterday gerri and my momo and mobo came over! wei hoe came over for a short while! he owes me two bottles of coke! he was catching up with my brother! took those acs uniforms from him! watched l word and smoked in my brother's room! :D off to my gramdma's place for dinner! met valllllll :D omg i missed her so muchh!

Val, you are so fucking special and you mean alot to me. i'm glad to have you! love you plenty.

Do you know your love is the sweetest sin?

Sun, 13 Jan 2008 16:49:11 GMT

Kissing with our eyes closed so tight
So young, and feeling so right
Never thought that we could do wrong
Kissing with our eyes closed so tight
So young, and feeling so right
I can't believe that those days are gone

<3

Best.

Val, Sasha, Mon & I.

LAM!!!

I can't remember what i've been doing. I've just been wasting my life. Smoking, drinking & slacking.

I really love Baby K! I dunno what i'll ever do without you. & I love you.

I miss the way you hold me close,
I miss how tightly you hold my hands,
I miss the way you look at me,
I miss the way you look when you are mad at me,
I miss that smile of yours,
I just fucking miss you.
<3

Tue, 25 Dec 2007 09:53:29 GMT

Merry Christmas everyone!
i'm late cause it's only 2am here in Las Vegas!

I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

**: you bitch! so i'm in america and you think you can do this to her? if you wanna leave her for a guy, no.1 fuck off, no.2 it's not a problem turning straight the only problem is getting a bf who is below average looking.

Christmas trees, Union Square.

more pictures next time! i'm gonna sleep already!
it's damn cold here! i'm gonna sleep now! goodnight.

I was almost about to loose my faith
Was still dreaming but feared it was too late
But then you came along to my surprise
And stoke my heart before my very eyesI was alomost about to loose my faith
Was still dreaming but feared it was too late
But then you came along to my surprise
And stole my heart before my very eyes.
I miss you sweetie :)

/edit

that's all folks :)

it's damn cold here and my skin is peeling! :(

val & cha cheer up! i'll be back! so yesterday i got a call from them! :) but they were like damn high! i miss them so much!

Mon, 17 Dec 2007 06:47:57 GMT

Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

Grumpy boy!

Cool Alley.

Chinese smokers hide out.

Perfect.

So after 16hours we are at San Francisco. We were so bored on board that we did many stupid things. We also have been eating alot! this is very very bad. So we arrived at SF at about 7am sinagpore time. Slacked awhile and had dinner.

We just went down to smoke with our BOXERS! Damn embarrassing & COLDD!

Okay i'll update when there are more pictures :)

I miss everyone especially that silly Fatgirl! <3

Sat, 15 Dec 2007 15:05:26 GMT

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

Zouk on thursday. It was fun!
Was with Aly, Nat, Kim, Kaevis, Kervon & Jovene. Saw Claudia, Geraldine, Evan, Anju, Von, Cor, Bathu and many more people. Spize for supper with Kaevis, Kervon, Jo, Nat, Kim, Jovene and a few more people :) Jovene and i love to sit at the road side! cause we are lazy people. :O

Okay when i reach America! For now everyone please take care! I'm gonna spend white christmas and new year over there! :)
I'm going to San Francisco again! I can wait to eat the sea ood at Fisherman's Wharf again! Go to Disney Land or Universal Studio to get my favourite Winne the Pooh lollipops! :D

Girlfriend is back!! Omg i miss her so muchhh! <3 I love you girlfriend! I'll spend time with you when i get back!

Okay byeeeee.

Make your heart drop and come alive.

Sun, 09 Dec 2007 16:37:59 GMT

Think about how we used to do
Nights alone when I rockin with you
I can’t help it, I kick myself in the ass
Cause I’m sittin here ‘bout to blow it
I know I can’t take no more
Time to change it up for sure
Cause I’m not tryin to let you go

I miss my hairrr :(

Credits to val :D

Best.

This is black mail but i don't care.
It's LG anyway HAHA.

Fatty <3

Baanana.

Cool specs :) It's kim's anyway.

MJ. Isn't she cute?
She's our baby.

Melissa is jealous of MJ cause i love MJ so much. She's being selfish by not wanting to lend MJ to me. She is afraid that i'd leave MJ in America!

Friday,
Took i train with ***. Went to fo my hair at Bugis. L was already there! Val came to accompany us! aww so sweet! Thanks bryan! My hair turned out so much better than i expected! Saw eli there :) And se sent me a picture of herself cause i wanted to see how her hair turned out, she's so adorable :) Will you take me to your show, pretty please. After i was done, met pris and my lovely wife. Wife, words cannot describe how much i appreciate you. :) Had dinner at Mos with both of them plus baanana. We just sat there and kept laughing non stop. Off to spins to meet kim and nat! Played some funny game and we just burst out laughing. Left. I wanted to post eli's picture but i'm afraid she might kill me.

Saturday,
Met szetoh, zhen, jourdan, sasha, shanna, jonni, jon chua, pelyn, joel, wee, LG and val at mac cafe. LP, LB and Wl came and look for me. Thanks, i love you guys. In the evening, off to spins with sasha and shanna. Went to look for nat and jo. Played that stupid game. Kim, michelle and gillian came. Saw shuyu! We talked and talked and talked! That's what happens when you have not seen someone in such a long time. :) Off to cine. Wanted to catch a movie but didn't! Did stupid hings oytside cine, like taking a video with made us laugh non stop again! Decided to go level 9 instead to watch re-incarnation. Homed.

Sunday,
Stayed home the whole day just to do my project. It's driving me nuts. I have not stayed home the whole day since years ago. It's the last week of school! :)

Goodnight.

I can't stop my breathing in
I'm weak and you were my medicine
I won't stop till I am under your skin.
I fucking can't get you off my mind. :)

She's breath taking but too much more.

Thu, 06 Dec 2007 17:13:18 GMT

I'm starting to love school
Cause, and it's all because of you :)
It's gonna be a challenge,
but i know i'll get there somehow.

Omg my classmates ane damn funny! each icon on msn represens different people! haha taalk to me online and i'l show you me :)

Girl, i can't seem to get my mind off you.
Don't let our last kiss be our last,
give me tonight and i'll show you.
Supergirl <3

Wed, 05 Dec 2007 11:28:41 GMT

Remember we'd be up all night
Talking 'til the morning light, yeah
Like the way it used to be
Those simple days
Just you and me, mmmm

I think baby I know
What's on your mind
Cuz you look like you've
Got something to say

I may not say those words anymore
But maybe it just ain't my way

You ask me do I love you but
Do you remember
Why I walked on water for you
Do you remember
My first steps on the moon
Have you ever wondered why
I gave three wishes to you
You asked the question
But the answer lies
In you, in you
The answer lies in you

Remember we used to laugh and say
No one else could get in our way
And there were times
When you would cry
And came knocking
On my door
And I was there
To shelter your pain

I think baby you should
Get that off your mind
Make it seem like
A brighter day

I may not say those words anymore
But maybe I can make it my way

You ask me do I love you but
Do you remember
Why I walked on water for you
Do you remember
My first steps on the moon
Have you ever wondered why
I gave three wishes to you
You asked the question
But the answer lies
In you, in you
The answer lies in you

The answer girl
Lies within your heart
Take a look inside

Sorry i didn't make you feel special.
I hope this would make you feel special.

Mon, 03 Dec 2007 15:52:51 GMT

If I told you that I wanna be in your life
Then you could be the woman in mine.

Number one girl.

The girl i look best beside.

My hairrrrr :( okay that's not the point. I'm sorry for making you cry again. :( i really am. Please cheer up. I know you want your phone back, all i can hope for is someone to return it to you. I know how much those messages mean to you, but fat maid got it back so would you! Cheer up pleaseeee, pretty please.
I remember 2 weeks ago you told me you wouldn't eat me cause you couldn't bear to and i asked why, you started singing you're one in a million. Well though i just stared laughing i really appreciate it. Thank you.

Baby k: I know things ain't going your way as well, know that I love you.

25/11/07
Met Muthu, pictures above. She's owes me a movie treat cause she lost 5-1 in daidi hahaha.
Happy Birthday LG :D
pictures.

Last week,

Hairrr :(

Wife, you know i love you. I really appreciate everything you have done and you are the best i ever had.

I love my nails! No shit.

Ain't the sleeves pretty!

I have no choice but to put it up, since i changed my wallpaper.

Cookie,zhen,me,anju,jo,csh,fatmaid,nat,val,lg,pooh & jackey!

Laft friday was fucking fun! I love tag team daidi! :D

Today.

F***ables.
Iloveyou.

Loverr. Chickmate.

Chickmate 2

Kbye.
Thank you Fat i appreciate it. :D
& not forgetting the ones at the smoking alley today :D

Sun, 02 Dec 2007 16:58:30 GMT

You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover all the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover all the stars above us

I've been looking for that special one
And I've been searching for someone to give my love
And when I thought that all the hope was gone
You smile, there you were and I was gone

I always will remember how I felt that day
A feeling indescribable to me
Yeah
I always knew there was an answer for my prayer
And you, you're the one for me

I was cool and everything was possible
You tried to catch me but it wasn't possible
Nobody could hurt me it was my game
Until I met you baby and went insane
And when you didn't want me, I wanted you
Because the finer thing bout it was I like to go
I like it when its difficult I like it when it's hard
You know it's worth it if ya find your heart

I know you lost your phone and you are upset with yourself cause the messages i sent you are all gone. Maybe you should try to let go, it's not that i'm leaving but your friend just riuned you or us. Please cheer up okay. As a friend, she doesn't care about how you feel, talking behind your back and putting words into your mouth, telling me you are still holding on 5hours after the incident last night. I know you really regret and you're really sorry but i just don't know. I'm confused.

I hate you for putting words into her mouth, i hate you for making her regret. As a friend you should do what's best for her not otherwise. Fuck you bitch.

i'm feeling fucking sick now bye.

Sat, 01 Dec 2007 18:28:33 GMT

Trust you is just one defense
off a list of others, you don't make sense
Beg me time and time again
to take you back now, but you can't win
Take back now, my life you're stealing

Yesterday was hell
But today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me again
but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

And when the memory slips away
There will be a better view from here
And only lonesome you remains
and just the thought of you I fear
it falls away.

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
Every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever you will surely drown
I see what's going down

Date :D 25/11/07

Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down, a new life she has.

Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down, a new life she has.

Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down, a new life she has.

Best, please cheer up. you know i love you. I realy appreciate your message everynight. Please please cheer up Jourdan.

Baby k, I won't know what to do without you. Thank you.

GF, Thank you. Simple.

If you decide to be immature at this age, just continue. Please stop crying it's not going to work.

It's not very nice to put words into your friends mouthu to spoil thier relationship.

Thu, 22 Nov 2007 02:36:10 GMT

I"m tripping without you.

After talking to Sara on the phone for just fifteen min yesterday, i realised how fucking much i miss her and I told her i'd love her forever. So we were talking and she supposedly being a good student, apparently walked out of class just to talk to me! :D
Thank you & love you too!

I won't shout at you in the middle of Tiong Market. I promise!

shh, don't let sk know.

Mon, 12 Nov 2007 13:42:34 GMT

It's killing me to know
That your heart hurts with me
But you're with him cause I chose
To be in this industry
Money, shows, and hoes come along with luxury and pain
Is all you see when you think about it
But this is the life that I was given
So I have to live it to the fullest
But how do I deal in the meantime without you

How do you deal when
you can't be with the one you love
And the one that you love is with somebody else
(I don't know, I don't know)
And what do you do
when you know she don't love him
and she loves me but she just can't stand loving you far away
(I guess I'm gonna have to just)
You just deal with it, deal with it
(I don't want to have to live with it)
You just deal with it, deal with it
(no, no, no)
You just deal with it, deal with it
(I don't want nobody else loving you)
You just deal with it, deal with it
(I don't want nobody else loving me)

It pains me seeing you with someone you do not love.

I miss you so FUCKING much. ):

I've had enough fun out there and i know it's time for me to be back by your side. I don't wanna go anywhere, i just want to be right here with you. Just the two of us. I'm really sorry for leaving you alone all the time and for making you cry.
I'll be keen, I promise.
I'll give up my life, I promise.
I'll never make you cry again, I promise.
Lastly, I'll never ever leave you alone.
Baby, will you please come back. Please.

Thanks friends, but i know what's best for me.

I'm not going to America to study nor will i go Australia.
Sorry WJ i won't join you.
Sorry mum and dad, but i'm not prepared to leave my love behind.

Sun, 04 Nov 2007 04:29:37 GMT

And I'm losing my will
Just to hold you in
I'm giving up the hope
That you could have been the one
To save me from me
And now our lips will meet
and i'll taste their defeat
I'll give in this once

Fuck, you know she isn't in love with you. Why the fuck are you still holding on. I think if you really love her, you should fucking let her go. Ya and we are forever quarrelling cause of you and when we argue, she cries. If you fucking love her, you would't want to see her sad. Anyhow, i think you are disgusting.

All the geeks get the girls.

This week was awesome ! Well i can't remember what happened but these were the people i met.
Chio bu, fei mui, val,ben, hj, jillian, sasha, shanna, lam, csh, jackey, wei hoe, szetoh, zhen, hillary and friend, nigel, li gang, shark and BABY K! Okay i hope i didn't miss anyone out! I have been out playing cards and slacking.
Went home at 6am saturday morning! It was a little boring until wei hoe taught us this game ! haha. I'm lazy to upload pictures, so next time (:

Hey stranger, I think you look hot (:

To rachaell From Zhiyi

Wed, 24 Oct 2007 09:16:23 GMT

RACHAELL MARYLYNN MATHEWS I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THIS DAMN WORLD.
TOGETHER FOREVER
I LOVE YOU!
(:

Fri, 19 Oct 2007 18:31:23 GMT

Sorry Baby,
I'll be back someday, somehow,
Just not right now.

I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what you're goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

I promise you I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday
Even though we go seprate ways

You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
You stood right by me
through the tears through everything.

Forever Baby, I'll remember you.

Fei Mui & Chio Bu.

Fei Mui :D

Big Gwen (:

Jen & Sasha.

wanna hitch a ride ? (:

Val (:

Anyway, school has already started ): It sucks so bad.

Have been hanging out at Orchard Parade with chio bu, fei mui, jen, michelle, karen, val, csh, merl, xl and gwen ! (: I really loved the company !

Wed, Karen and Xiao long crashed ! Met LOVERR for awhile ! missed her so so muchhh !

Today, after schol, went bugis with val (: went to OP so meet chio bu, merl, tara, jen, michelle and steff, karen & all. Then later in the night, csh, fei mui, ben, kim, jackey & all came ! it was really fun ! playing cards, laughing and all :D
went newton for supper then homed ! thanks ben for driving me home ! (:

Fei Mui,
yknow that i'll be here for you (: i'm just a phone call away or you can just walk to my house <3

Girlfriend,
I FUCKING MISS YOU.
and i wish you were here to hug me now ! don't worry cause i'm okay !
ILOVEYOU GIRLFRIEND
<3

Thu, 18 Oct 2007 04:43:21 GMT

I can't believe you had the nerve to say the things you said
they hurt so bad that they ended our relationship
i can't believe it ..4 years gone down the drain
oh how i wish things would of happened so differently
i try'd to save it so many times but you still couldn't see
you kept insistin' and resistin' that you would not fall again
and now your tryin' to tell me that your sorry
and your tryin' to come back home
you tellin' me you really need me crying beggin both knees are on the floor
but baby i

don't wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try no more
you keep insisting when you know our love is out the door
don't wanna try don't wanna try cuz all we do is fight and say the things
that hurt so bad to where we both begin to cry
don't wanna try don't wanna try i 'bout just had enough its been a rough road
baby just let it go
don't wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try no more
tell me whats the use of holdin' on when all we do is hurt our love

you and i had many conversations on the telephone
talks about one day we having a place of our own
wake up in the morning and have breakfast ready on the table
but all of that just seems so far away from me
had to wake up face reality
it all just seem to good to be true after all you put me through
and now your tryin' to tell me that ur sorry
and your tryin' to come back home
you tellin' me that you really need me crying beggin both knees are on the floor.

Sorry Baby, I'm not trying no more.
You take care,
Goodbye ):

I lie awake, I drive myself crazy, drive myself crazy thinking of you.

Thu, 11 Oct 2007 16:48:50 GMT

CHIO BU (:

meet my CHIO BU !

the four of us (:

KARENNNN (:

Monday, sentosa with muthu !
met val and sp there too !!

Stayed over at Karen's yesterday :DDD It was so fun ! all the baking, the cooking, the screaming and the best of it all was the company ! I had fun playing with SPAG (don't be jealous Karen). She's the cutest thing on earth ! Like how she runs around the house and licking people. There were so many of us last night ! michelle,bel,csh,lam,sasha and karen ! Karen woke us up at like 9 in the morning ! so early !!! I was sleeping besideKaren and at 6 am she fell off the bed HAHA ! anyway, Karen's gonna make the ghost thing for me and it's damn super cute! YAY ! <333333

Today was csh's firs day at work ! like who the hell can imagine her working HAHA ! and all the nerds flew ! she suckkk ! oh yes and it's damn fun when we all sing together :DDD

one word,
FUN !

kthxbyeee :D

Thu, 04 Oct 2007 17:19:14 GMT

MY DEAREST CHIO BU ! :D

that's melissa loh btw !(:
okay i'm lazy to update !
i miss holland !

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 15:45:55 GMT

But she's out of my reach forever
And just a week ago she lied next to me
It's so ironic how I had to lose just
To see that I failed to love you
And you're taking it out tonight.

These few days have been the best days of my life (: Thank you Ben, for making sure that i get home safe at night. I really appreciate it. You are the BEST (: <3 you. Thanks for sending me home (:

Today sha and I went to my mom's office to work ! haha ! it was so tiring ! :D
OFFICE BOYS- <3

I saw this from Girlfriend's xanga.
Sal's damn bad to mee ):

Wee Jia: Omg you & zhiyi. I hate zhiyi cus she's flirting. Argh. She's mine! You you you! Tsk.

ARGHHH ! I'M SO FUCKING ANGRY RIGHT NOW !!!! MY BROTHER HAS FUCKING ATTITUDE PROBLEM ! I HOPE YOU READ THIS ! YOU BLOODY HELL HAVE FUCKING ATTITUDE PROBLEM AND THAT WILL NEVER GET YOU ANYWHERE. YOU ARE FUCKING CHILDISH AND RAWRR WHATEVER ! FUCKING SELFISH ! ONLY THINKS ABOUT HIMSELF ! FUCKERRR !

k bye. argh !
<3 you Girlfriend.